Thinking a Lot!

I have observed that in last few days i have been thinking a lot. I myself do not know one specific reason as there is so much going on in my mind together.

I am constantly worried about my mother,she had fever last weak. I am so very worried about her health.She should be taken for her tests regularly and the mere thought of taking her for tests is so horrifying. When her report comes, i am continuously taking my god's name in heart while opening the envelope and once the report is seen and i found all is well, i am relaxed for another 3 months. Then again after 3 months same worries start knocking my mind. There is no day, after she fell sick 3 years back, that i have had a relaxed sleep. Even in sleep i am worried for her. There is a heartache which could never be explained in words.

Another reason, that comes in my mind is that i am working like insane on my dream project and until i achieve my goal i am lost in my own world. I don't feel hungry and find myself day dreaming and when i am not day dreaming i am working on it. Precisely every second, every minute i am into it. When i go and search i found that these thoughts are not hampering me as the one of my mother's health. Just that i am working hard and have not achieved the goal yet and i am in hurry, this is only bothering me. On the contrary, i am enjoying the journey. I am loving it that is why always dreaming about it. May be this is only called living a dream.Yes, i am in hurry but things take time and i have to understand this.

The very next reason that comes to my

mind is that off late i am thinking too much about a baby. I know its 2 and a half years to my marriage and i need at least one. But i have this time problem, I am nurturing my dream as my baby, but i need a actual baby too. I want someone who belongs to me, who is my flesh and blood. I know this sounds too weird in today's time, but this is something we all think, don't we?...just that i am admitting this. I am lucky enough to have a family and a husband who always understand my priorities and had never nagged me to provide them with a baby, they have always left it on me to decide when i want to become a mother. But now i want to start my own family as soon as my project finishes.

Well, these are the only three which i could recall right now, there could be many other worries or thoughts occupying my mind or precisely subconscious mind.